December 18th 2022
Vale Robert Adamson.




Friday 16th December

Day 16
We took a picnic and did a lovely reflective walk around the lake today.
The card I had received when we arrived was called NATURE; AND THE INSTRUCTION “TAKE A WALK . LET THE BEAUTY OF NATURE FEED YOU”
And that’s what I did today.
The Black Swans were close up on our side of Tuggerah Lake . They graze the wrck and reeds as do the cormorants and herons and ibis but they realise there is enough for all,
There is a poem here but it has not come as yet,
However sitting here , reflecting, watching the pelican, cormorants, black swans and lots of other birds on and around the lake demonstrates a peacefulness .
List of remembered birds on our walk to the lake today: ducks and cute ducklings, magpies, willy wag tails, butcher birds, native miners, ibis , swallows, wrens, raven, kookaburra, plovers and mudlarks .
Accepting each other and letting be is one way to peacefulness.
Monday 12th DECEMBER

Day 12
Poetry is a life-cherishing force. For poems are not words, after all, but fires for the cold, ropes let down to the lost, something necessary as bread in the pockets of the hungry – Mary Oliver from A Poetry Handbook
1.When you feel conflicted read Wild Geese
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles
through the desert,
repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal
of your body
love what it loves
2. When you are feeling down or grieving read Starlings in Winter
I want to think again
dangerous and noble things.
I want to be light and frolicsome.
I want to be improbable beautiful
and afraid of nothing,
as though I had wings.
3. When you want to put up boundaries read Lead
I tell you this to break your heart,
by which I mean
only that it break open
and never close again
to rest of the world.
4. When you feel you are living without purpose read The Summer Day
Tell me,
what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?
5. When you are too caught up in your own thoughts and worries read I Go Down to the Shore
I go down to the shore in the morning
and depending on the hour
the waves are rolling in or moving out,
and I say,
Oh, I am miserable,
what shall –
what should I do?
And the sea says in its lovely voice,
Excuse me, I have work to do .
On a practical level we had one of our youngest grandchildren staying with us for the weekend.
Today, Sunday morning, began with reading of books in my bed, a game of banana using the letters in patterns, then building, then finding a target to shoot foam bullets , then he needed the plank set up and to play cars with Pa. And it was only 9 oclock. so setting out on the adventure slowed us down a little, except the weather was wild with blue sky changing to a wild windy storm gone as quickly as it arrived.
We took him on an adventure – three train, one train took in 4 stations to Beecroft with an awesome childrens park . Then train with 5 stations to Hornsby and a visit to the library with a great childrens section for reading, and train three of one station and walk home. We were all very tired at the end of the adveneture. Back home it was playdough then colouring in a monster. (for about 10mins. ) coits , and then we stopped . Then his dad arrived from an appointment he had in city and they set back off for Coffs Harbour,

Friday 9th DECEMBER

Day 9
The Swan
Did you too see it, drifting, all night, on the black river?
Did you see it in the morning, rising into the silvery air –
An armful of white blossoms,
A perfect commotion of silk and linen as it leaned
into the bondage of its wings; a snowbank, a bank of lilies,
Biting the air with its black beak?
Did you hear it, fluting and whistling
A shrill dark music – like the rain pelting the trees – like a waterfall
Knifing down the black ledges?
And did you see it, finally, just under the clouds –
A white cross Streaming across the sky, its feet
Like black leaves, its wings Like the stretching light of the river?
And did you feel it, in your heart, how it pertained to everything?
And have you too finally figured out what beauty is for?
And have you changed your life?
– Mary Oliver
How did I feel , in my heart, today as I met my dear friend and confidente and school friend from many decades back and as I received a text from another dear friend with her sharing of a tree she saw on her morning walk . . . its leaves in the light, breathtaking?
And have I finally figured out what beauty is for ?
I can only say I have come a little closer to those questions and as one poet says I am living into the answers.

One thing I do know Nature for my friends and I is saviour . And with my friends we both agree from our deep spiritual awareness, Nature speaks to us as the one who helps show us the way and nature is our chapel, church and cathedral.
Buildings where we once felt secure do nothing now for us compared to the shape, colour, texture, smell, story, feel of nature especially a tree.
And in this beauty is peace. Peace for all the world??
Each of us cannot make that happen. We can only work towards it in the place where we stand.
We can only make it in the person we are and let it radiate out from there and hoping there are enough of us that feel and act that way so that it hits the tipping point for peaceful ways, peaceful answers, peaceful solutions rather than always falling back into fighting and wars. Peace can reign and life is happy for both sides of any conflict when resolutions are worked on.
Paperbarks on my Lake Walk
speak in theirs tones of browns and cream and buff
their conversations stance all unique, feminine and real,
their rootedness, grounding and sense of place
reminding me to be present to every moment of the day
their texture that encourage me to race home and write
and in the sound of their leaves rustling in the breeze

MONDAY 5TH DECEMBER

Day 5
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”
― Rainer Maria Rilke
Finding paradox while watering the garden
under the lower shady leaves
it hides
wanting only time
cycle time
clues left in the nibbled holes
on my green osmocoted leaves
on my salmon rose that makes me sing
Mary Olivers words –
Sunshine and showers . . .
its morning and again
I am that lucky person who is in it .
i spent yesterday mesmerised
by white butterflies
somersaulting around the garden
in intoxicated revelry
and they too made me sing –
Mary Olivers words
its morning and again
I am that lucky person who is in it .
today I find my rose
caught in time cycles
cocoons pouches of eggs
i say not on my rose
and it reveals itself
humbly like a koen
in my searching hands
still making me sing
Mary Oliver words –
I am that lucky person who is in it

Also a family birthday for our 11 year old grandson with family, food and fun. Lovely to watch the grandchildren growing up so beautifully under the guidance of our children.
SUNDAY 4TH DECEMBER

It was fun having two of our grandchildren, 10 year old cousins, one from Coffs Harbour and one from Sydney with us. Our lego table is always popular for play and catching up with each other what ever age.
Day 4: It isn’t enough to talk about peace. One must believe in it.
And it isn’t enough to believe in it.
One must work at it.
Eleanor Roosevelt from 1951 Voice of America broadcast
Working at peace is an every day work. . . believing in it when the day seems dim and allowing each new day to be a magpie dawn, feel its joy and begin again.
Peace is not something we achieve , somethong we win, it is something that is always ‘a becoming ‘ something we need to believe in and work at. In a family peace is rewarding because it means you are more relaxed and more joyful .
Peace in a family is something to sing for and about with gratitude each new day.
Children sit and play lego, and chat together but they are listening to the adult talk the whole time. That is how they learn to become adults.
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FRIDAY 3rd DECEMBER

Watching the lilies open slowly for the next few December mornings reminds me peace is always becoming
Day 3 Peace is a day-to-day problem, the product of a multitude of events and judgement.
Peace is not an ‘is’ it is a ‘becoming’
Hale Selassie
while doing a grocery shop
you suggested buying flowers
i chose the day lilies
long slender stems tightly budded
their colour yet to be revealed
a navy blue vase
the last gift from my mother
i arranged them
to await the first peep of colour
they would open as they chose
we patiently watered waited
worked and dined
at the table with them
the buds stirred
blossomed each a surprise
some yellow some white
lightly speckled petals
every time i noticed them
they made me smile
you suggested buying flowers –
that has doubled the pleasure
Colleen Keating from my upcoming book ‘The Light Gets In‘ to be published early 2024

Photos taken in the last lockdown as I followed each bud open and found gratitude singing in me.
FRIDAY 2nd DECEMBER

Lovely drive out to Swains Garden Centre to buy a few plants including a new Peace Lily. Returned home to do some gardening. Photo is one of some of our plantings today. Lettuce, Endives, hopefully ready in Christmas week.
Working in the garden, being in nature, is one way to see the world differently. The white butterflies and bees flirting around the Petunias, the tiny buds on the Kangaroo Paws, the curly greens of the parsley and the wonderful aroma of the lemon balm, the simplicity of each bud on the Peace Lily brings us to that inner place of centring . . . of being from where peace comes . . .
THURSDAY 1ST DECEMBER 2022

Welcome to the first day of summer .
Our month to remind ourselves PEACE is our way.
This morning our Mary McKillop Rose welcomed me and I hope it fills you with December joy.
We have farewelled Novemeber and spring and have stepped into a new season here in the southern hemisphere, the last month of 2022 and perhaps this day many of us have taken a deep breath as we contemplate all that December will hold. No doubt we will all be hearing a count down of days for Christmas to arrive. It can make the month feel shorter. It is a month to contemplate peace even more than usual with the story of Bethlehem as a tiny breath of hope breathes in the starry darkness of night
I always tell friends make everyday of your birthday month special in some way . .just aware of being alive, is enough or treat yourself in taking time to enjoy even a moment of beauty.

